Colin,

Despite the true hell you often inhabit, just be glad you're not in America where the suffering could be far greater (and I'd guess >7,000,000 of us Americans agree pretty much unanimously, even the deceased):

https://foofaraw.medium.com/i-beg-you-to-consider-reading-what-i-desperately-hope-wont-be-my-last-medium-article-bf5cb5052a2c

(I almost never link to myself, but 1) I'm unpaid, and 2) I think you may be interested.)

Best to you, Colin.